Thursday, July 24, 2008

Well That Just Sucks!!!!

I found out today that we will not be able to do IVF (in vitro). I went to the Dr. today to see how everything was progressing...the medicine worked and I had about 5 follicles on one side and about 2 on the other BUT there was one follicle with a VERY mature egg that is about ready to be fertilized. The other eggs are a few days behind. If the one mature egg was not there we could let the others mature a little longer and go ahead with the plan but because of the one that is ready to roll we have changed the plan to IUI (intrauterine insemination-artificial insemination). As I sat fighting back tears, the Dr. explained that everything worked the way it should naturally in my body but that the medicine should have 1) produced alot of eggs that matured at the same time and 2) kept me from ovulating too soon...well, it is too soon, that is why we will be doing the IUI on Saturday morning....about 7 days sooner than the projected IVF date.

I am a ball of emotion. I can't believe I have gone through all of this and now we will be doing a procedure that I have already had done twice!!! I lost it with the nurse (crying)...I tried to whisper my feelings so I wouldn't cry but that did not work. How am I supposed to feel positive about this when we have not gotten pregnant in 6 years with 2 IUI's. The Dr. and nurse said that because I was on all of the medicine that my chances are better than when I did the 2 previous IUI's with Clomid only....we'll see! THIS SUCKS!!!!

So, if this does not work, we will start another round of IVF meds, stronger this time, and do the transfer sometime in September. This is all very difficult for a girl who wants immediate gratification with everything. I hate waiting games, I mark everyday on a calendar and count the remaining days. I am so disappointed!

I hope and pray that the IUI works. The Dr. said that considering there are no known problems with either of us that there is no reason it shouldn't work. I reminded her of our previous tries and she said "that's the joy of unknown infertility...there is just no answer".

Wish us luck!



Blogger Jill said...

Amy~ Oh my gosh... I don't know what to say. I am hoping for the best. Like the Dr. said... your chances are better now than ever!

SATURDAY... Wow! I'll be thinking and praying for you. Call me if you need someone to talk or cry to, I not kidding! Let me know how it goes. Love you.

July 24, 2008 at 11:58 PM  
Blogger Jill said...

In all seriousness..good luck. No, GREAT LUCK!! Sending a prayer your way....

July 25, 2008 at 12:08 AM  
Blogger Maria said...

Grr, I still can't read your blog!! And I really want to! I'll keep trying though, for some reason it just doesn't fully load.

July 25, 2008 at 12:16 PM  
Blogger Renee said...

Deep breath... 3rd time's a charm... 3rd time's a charm...

I know, that's totally cliche but it fits. Have they done an HSG (they dye test)? If they did then you know your tubes are open and the IUI will get those swimmers to the right place at the right time.

Did you know you can ask them to do an ultra sound guided IUI? That's how they had to do all of mine because I'm twisted. LOL! Seriously though it's really cool and you can actually see the sperm (bubbles) moving into the right place. Maybe that will help.

Are they going to give you a trigger shot? That helps the rest of the eggs mature so they can be released as well. Either way, all you need is one good egg.

Good luck! I'll be thinking about your.

July 25, 2008 at 2:17 PM  
Blogger Laura said...

Not sure what to say, but your title for this section is spot on. Holy cow - tomorrow's a big day. Sending lots of positive fertility vibes and prayers your way. Hang in there - we're all pulling for you and Joe! Hugs...

July 25, 2008 at 3:16 PM  

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