Friday, June 13, 2008

An Update

Well, it happened.....I cried! Today was a tough day. I am so over eating the same thing, eating on the road is very difficult. It's amazing how many things I can't eat. A husband and wife eating eggs non-stop does not make for a romantic night....haha! We are both having a hard time with the lack of choices and the lack of energy from no carbs. I had a particularly hard time today. I was at a meeting for work, had only eaten a spoonful of peanut butter and a glass of no sugar added chocolate milk, and in comes a Pizza Hut delivery man with 10 pizzas!!! I FREAKED! I grabbed my cell phone and texted 3 people for support, my mind was swirling, it smelled so good, it was pepperoni thick crust, OH MY GOD!!!!!! Did I falter? NO I DIDN'T! I can't believe it myself. I got 2 slices and scraped the cheese and pepperoni off and ate that...it was not filling AT ALL. Seriously, I think it was the only pizza I have ever had with so little cheese on it...figures! I stared at the naked pizza dough for about 5 minutes...can't I just have a few bites? I went out to my car and got a can of peanuts. While everyone else wiped grease from their chins and sat back with dazed, happy looks on their faces, I ate 1 peanut at a time....so sad.

The crying came later that night. I was standing in the kitchen (remember, I predicted this in a previous post), staring at the fridge, then the pantry, then the fridge. AAAHHHHHHH!!!!!! I don't want eggs, I don't want nuts, I don't want a salad. I cried. Joe was not home but he talked me through it on the phone while I made an omelet....I think he secretly wants to cry, too. Later that night I read excerpts from the SBD book out loud, we watched 'So You Think You Can Dance' and found renewed happiness...for now.

Now, an update on fertility. I got the results back from a series of blood tests that the Dr. ordered. I do not have the gene for cystic fibrosis. I am not sure why they check for this disease in particular, but both mother and father have to have the gene to pass it on. My thyroid is normal, glucose is normal, I am immune to Rubella, all of my hormone levels are normal, and my cholesterol is okay...a little high but okay. So, all of that is good news. I have 2 appts. next week, one of which is a trial run on retrieving my eggs. I start Lupron shots on July 11th....oh, and Joe, he has to have a good time with himself, collect a sample and get it analyzed....so sad for him! I joke, I joke! Kinda.

Well, I hope the weekend lifts our spirits. We are going to see The Doobie Brothers (one of my all time favorite bands) and Chicago!!!! I am helping host a "Romance" party at my house which should be interesting and entertaining. And, we will be taking my dad out for dinner for fathers day and visiting Joe's dad during the day. Lot's of stuff to keep us busy!

2 Comments:

Blogger Jill said...

I'm so sorry, Amy! I saw a missed call from you last night. I got a new phone and I have to turn up the volume... I can't hear it! I'll give you some food ideas later today, eggs all the time sounds terrible!!!! And I'm so sorry I was so upset yesterday on the phone about my problem and didn't ask you about your day. That was not nice of me. Hang in there...we'll talk later.

June 13, 2008 at 9:42 AM  
Blogger Missy said...

Amy, hang in there honey!
I'm thinkin' about you...I'm home for the summer, come down anytime. I'm up at 6am (I know you are not), and naptime isn't until noon. So, come on down anytime...OH AND THE NEXT TOY PARTY YOU HAVE, I WANNA ATTEND!

June 20, 2008 at 3:20 PM  

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